Religion is Complicated.

Religion is a hard topic to discuss. I am overwhelmed by the uncertainty about god, just as Ruby is. She says in her post:

If there truly is a God up there, do we really want to believe (s)he has complete jurisdiction over lives, and scrutinizes our every mistake? And, if God permits or generates the most unfortunate of events, what is our praise and faith really doing for us? Do all people believe dreadful; events aren't so bad, because God commands them or authorizes them to be done? And if God controls the Earth, why isn't the world in peace like we so desperately want it to be?

I am always caught in confusion when the quote, "God works in mysterious ways", comes up. If philosophy cannot justify religion, what can? For a long time I thought it is fate; the amount of trust you have in god, that helps you solidify god. But this have been proved wrong by numbers of events in history, like the Holocaust. Is killing innocent lives part of god's plan? In the book Night, the Jews' fate in God did not help the most pious survive. Because of the existence of horrible events, people question whether there is a God. Even though these things have happened, I still believe there is a god, but we just cannot understand the way he/she works or how he/she determines our destiny. I think everything that happened have a reason. Maybe god is not conducting everything. Perhaps he allows humans to lead their own road, so that's why we make mistakes, and then he justify us on what we have done in our lives, the choices we have made, and then gives us feedback like karma or happiness or whatever there is. There are so many people in this world, can he possibly control every one of our lives? Is allowing people to die a sacrifice so that humans can grasp the meaning behind it? Logic does not help in this case, but it's worth a try.